I would kill to have Cal Lightman as my dad.
(Source: revisitnormal)
I feel like a terrible human being right now
Theatre awards. Yaaaaay.
Except not.
I am so selfish, so goddamn selfish, that I am jealous of my friend for being better than me.
Newsflash Tori, you don’t have to be the best at everything you do and obviously you aren’t anyway because you’re not valedictorian, you didn’t win ANY theatre awards, and you didn’t win nearly as many scholarships as everyone else.
It’s just….theatre is my life. I pour my heart and soul and sweat and tears into every single production I’m a part of. I have acted in the ensemble, I have assistant directed multiple times, I have stepped in the day of a performance to do an actor’s role when they were in the hospital, I have DIRECTED a show, I’ve been an almost-lead, I was freaking president of the drama club, and I have been in every single performance I was able to be in, even before I was in high school.
But apparently I’m not good enough.
No, my director decided Hayley was the most important member of the senior class.
I’m being so ridiculous, obviously she’s important, she’s been a lead since sophomore year, her voice is fantastic, and she’s a great dancer. I don’t deserve it, she does.
But it hurts so much to be so overlooked. Again. I just thought I was more to the theatre department than an “ambassador” which is all my director apparently sees me as. That, and a pain in his ass.
Fuck why does this hurt so badly. After the other banquet, I was holding on to this tiny shred of hope that the only reason I didn’t get the theatre award was that I got the science one and he couldn’t give it to someone who already got another award. But no, I’m actually that bad.
Everyone else he said something about their talent or tech work, but I was just “the ambassador” He saw me as someone else’s, and that’s what hurt the most.
Headphones rule.
No headphones = you can talk to me
1 headphone = you can talk to me if I like you
2 headphones = fuck off
Introverts, in contrast, may have strong social skills and enjoy parties and business meetings, but after a while wish they were home in their pajamas. They prefer to devote their social energies to close friends, colleagues, and family. They listen more than they talk, think before they speak, and often feel as if they express themselves better in writing than in conversation. They tend to dislike conflict. Many have a horror of small talk, but enjoy deep discussions.
– Susan Cain, Quiet (via accountedfor) Via green eyes you're the one i've been looking forLike, I have seven pages of letter so far.
I’m not even done.
To be fair though, I’m only doing like half a page for each person.
In my defense, it is typed.
Almost done with my letters to Academy people.
I love writing letters because it makes me actually think about who I’m talking to and lets me say something really meaningful that people can maybe look back on if they ever feel like nobody believes in them.
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